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[ 12th dec ]

Posted on 2009.11.15 at 16:50
♥mymood♥: sexcited
Dear diary,
i bought my zoukout ticket already.
jyeahh!
can't fucking wait for 12th dec yaww=)
i'm soo gonna lose my zoukout virginity this year.
wuhoooooo.
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[ that's all i'm asking ]

Posted on 2009.10.17 at 18:12
♥mymood♥: blahblah
"Don't Forget"

Did you forget
That I was even alive
Did you forget
Everything we ever had
Did you forget
Did you forget
About me

Did you regret
Ever standing by my side
Did you forget
What we were feeling inside
Now I'm left to forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

So now I guess
This is where we have to stand
Did you regret
Ever holding my hand
Never again
Please don't forget
Don't forget

We had it all
We were just about to fall
Even more in love
Than we were before
I won't forget
I won't forget
About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it

Somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it
At all

And at last
All the pictures have been burned
And all the past
Is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget
Please don't forget us

But somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song
But you won't sing along
You've forgotten
About us
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[ zoukout ]

Posted on 2009.10.17 at 16:25
♥mymood♥: excitedsexited
Dear diary,
i fucking wanna go this year zouk out.
make it happen pleaseeeeee=)



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[ end it now? ]

Posted on 2009.10.17 at 14:21
♥mymood♥: confusedconfused
Dear diary,
maybe we should end it.
that's the best thing to do for me and him.
since he's back on track now,
i think he should just concentrate on his life.
go work things out,go and make things right.
just leave each other alone.
go live your life and i live mine.

i know this is like the second time i been saying this.
when the first time i told him that i wanna leave him and end it
i was half-hearted about it.
i didn't mean my words.
i just can't let go of him.
i just like him too much to lose him.

and everytime he asked me why am i leaving him and ending it too soon,
i just can't bring myself to leave him.
arghzzzz.

actually even right now,
even when i said that we should really end it
i'm still half-hearted about it
but now i think i'm more willingly to let go.
i should let go.
no different anyway
whether it's now or later..
we still have to leave each other.

i think i should'nt be thinking to much.
it's not neccessary.
all i gotta do is to just don't contact him that much.
if he don't text me,then i would'nt even bother to text him either.
and  if he text,just reply a few then stop.
simple.
i hope i can do that.
haha.
it might sound easy to do but when it comes to him..
it's hard for me to just ignore him like that.
everytime when i got a text from him i will smile to myself.
i don't know why.
and everytime when i know i'll be meeting him,
i'm always sexited about it.
hahah.

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[ live my life ]

Posted on 2009.10.17 at 13:47
♥mylocation♥: mylivingroom
♥mymood♥: happyhappy
Dear diary,
now that i already know where i stand.
let's just fuck it.
i don't want to still hoping something for us.
the best way to forget him is to just delete all the contacts i have with him.
be it facebook or his number.
deleted.
let's be strangers.

he text me saying that,
he hopes that i will find someone better than him.
oh hell yeaa,i will.
don't you worry fucking fuck,i will=)
he also said that he's not that guy i used to know back then.
i see.
so i guess now he's already a bad boy now huh?
good for you.
have fun being one.
you just starting to have fun with your life boy.
have fun.

okay!
enough of this fucking fuck.
he's soo outta my life.

now,
about my life.
one word..
fun.

more excitement and fun pleaseeeee=)

been out till late morning lately.
i kinda enjoy it.
this is just the right time for myself to just live my life to the fullness.
relationship can fucking wait.
why should i rush myself into one just because i see him having one now?
that will be lame and a sore loser me isn't?

just watch me lead my singlehood life with lots of fun=)

bye fucker.



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[ fucking fuck ]

Posted on 2009.09.21 at 14:05
♥mylocation♥: mylivingroom
♥mymood♥: blahblah
dear diary,
boy ohh boy,
i'm fucking glad that i played  and cheated you first even before you did.
will never regret about it.
i think you fucking deserve all those cheating and lies all this while.
bye fucking fuck.
         
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[ confession ]

Posted on 2009.09.13 at 12:45
♥mylocation♥: mydoperoom
♥mymood♥: sadsad
dear diary,
back about my last post.
you know about that guy i blog about..
i told him that i just want us to be friend,he can't accept it and decided to end the friendship.
even deleted me on facebook.
what the hell.
i mean,i was'nt expecting him to do that.
for a twenty-five years old guy to do that,soo immatured of him.
anyway,
if that's what he wants,then i said:get the fuck off from here.
no lost.

 [why you so obsessed with me,
boy i wanna know lying that you sexing me,
when everybody know,
it's clear that you're upset with me,
ohh finally  found a girl that you could'nt impressed,
last man on the earth still could'nt get his]

i dedicated this song to him.

Okay enough of mat sentol.
hmmm,
i think life is getting bitchy.
been getting to know lots of guys.
but none seems to caught my eyes.
i don't know,
i can't seem to fall for anyone.
maybe none of them is the right one.
anyway,
i'm not rushing.
i have the feeling that one day i will get sick and tired of all these.
and yes i will.
but for now,
let's just go with the flow.
maybe my expectation for guys just change a lil'bit high.
i don't know.

it's been a month now that i'm single.
so how was it?
not bad,i guess.
but seriously,
i still can't deny that i still do think of him at some period of time.
i must say,
i miss us.
i miss doing all those stuffs back when we were still together.
i know i should'nt be even thinking about the past.
but i'm just a human being with a sentimental feelings inside of me.
yes,i am a emotional person.
i just can't help it having all those shit feelings.
hah...

if only i could turn back time...

okay!,stop being emotional shall we?
haha.

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[ i'm sorry to give you hopes that will never come true ]

Posted on 2009.09.08 at 13:26
♥mylocation♥: mydoperoom
♥mymood♥: guiltyguilty
dear diary,
my love life is kinda in a mess right now.
it's so complicated.
i really don't know how to describe it.

i'm in a confused state of mind.
actually not really.
it's darn hard being a fickled minded person.
you tend to keep changing decision you make.

at first,i thought why not go for it.
maybe all i need is some time to make it happen.
but then along the way,
i realized that actually i'm not attracted to him,at all.
and that's difficult.
i mean to me,
in order for me to pursuit on a relationship,
i think that the most importantly is that i have to be attracted to the guy.
yes i admit,i go for looks.
i mean,who don't?
when you are already attracted to someone's by their appearance, 
that's where the feelings will come and from there things will go naturally.
you think?
i don't know,well that's how i feel and think.

i don't wanna be with someone just for his stability.
i need to have feelings for him and that's the most important thing.
i gotta feel the love,babey.
but too bad i;m not.
he can be sweet but once if i'm not attracted to him
no matter how sweet he can be,
sorry,i can't.
i just can't.
i just can't make myself like him.
what more love.

i'm sorry if from the start i have been giving him hopes.
telling him this and that.
i should'nt have done that.
i'm sorry for being fickled minded.

at first,
i was unsure if this is the right thing to do.
but i don't wanna fake myself,my feelings towards him especially.
i don't want to spoil the friendship.

and...
i've already made up my mind that,
i shall pass him.
i don't think it gonna work out.
i want us to be friends again.

i don't want him to keep waiting and hoping that he's gonna have me as his someone special.
cuz i'm sorry,that's not gonna happen.
i've tried,but i just can't.

i also feel that..
we have different intentions.
he wants to have me but i don't.
i'm more comfortable going solo now and i still wanna expand my options out there.

again,
i'm sorry.
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[ singlehood ]

Posted on 2009.09.06 at 14:00
♥mylocation♥: mylivingroom
♥mymood♥: okayokay
Dear diary,
just to update that i'm back to singlehood after three damn years of being attached to the 'sweetest' guy i ever met ever.
you must be asking,
so just who dumped who?
so just who's the asshole now?
you know when people got to know about the break up,
all of them thought that i'm the one who end it.
pffffft!
am i that bad or what sia??
and when thay know that he's the one who left me,
they were shocked.
well i was shocked too.
hah.
was'nt expecting that.

anyway,
it's all over and done for us now.
the date to remember:14 august 2009.

thanks ex boyfreind for the three years.
you rocked my world.
can't deny it.
you do.

100606-140809
sweet memories.

it's been three weeks now that i'm enjoying my singlehood.
well not bad,not bad for me.

i'm getting to know a few guys.
meeting them,making friends.
nothing much.

i'm not inlove at the moment.
not attracted to any guys yet.
well some a cute but..
i think they are just sticking with me for the wrong reasons.
that sucks.

okay bye.


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[ i'm back=)

Posted on 2009.09.06 at 13:39
♥mylocation♥: mylivingroom
♥mymood♥: blankblank

dear diary,
Hello,i'm back=)
i've decided to be active back here.
i think it's best for me to write my thoughts here.
i don't think people really read much here at my livejournal.
soo yeaaa,
guess i'll be writting all my confessions here=)

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